This is the post that almost never happened. I typed it yesterday, went to preview mode, that’s when something went terribly wrong. Take two! I calmed down, decided to try again, after thinking "maybe I was never supposed to blog again"!
I wrote the whole thing again, as much as I could remember from the first time as you will see by the random yada yada’s in here, and I should have been all set! You would think so, but no! I forgot to post it.
So here we are a day later, with my final attempt, if you are seeing this post I apologize in advance. I’m just glad it made it onto my page:)
(Here is how I started this post the first time I wrote it, at least this is a version of it. In other words I can’t remember):
If I had a dollar for every time I tried to write something on this blog the past few months, I would have enough money to pay
someone to write a post for me!
Now I'm drawing a blank! Okay, it went like this I think! This past year has been tough as you know, more has been going on with me than I've talked/typed about. I have a tendency to keep things to myself, yada, yada, yada. I told you I forgot!
Okay I think I was saying, I ended up with an extreme bout of anxiety that during normal situations I can handle without medication. This last year has been far from normal. I won’t bore you or depress you with the details. I gave in, took my doctor’s advice and started both medication and therapy. I’m not embarrassed to say I need medication for anxiety for the moment, anymore that I am to say I need medication for the Autoimmune Diseases I live with on a daily basis. Stress declared all out war on my body, sleeping has been almost impossible.
So, this is where I am at now I’m learning I need to start putting myself first, I have never been very good at that.
I don’t know if that is part of being a mom, selfishness doesn’t come easy to me. I have to learn to treat people the way they treat me and get rid of the negative in my life. I have to focus on the positives, they exist around me I can’t let the negatives drag me down with them.
This is not exactly what I wrote the first time, but I forgot what I did an hour ago, this is as good as it gets :)
On to the positives in my lives, my friends, even though they are far and wide, scattered all over the world, they have been there for me. They reached out when they or me for that matter didn't know I needed them the most. They picked up the phone and called me on days nobody else did, they sent e-mails, messages, just to make sure I was okay. I'm grateful and thankful for all of them.
I’m also thankful for my husband, he has been the one constant in my life, he has been here for me no matter what. We have good and bad days, but through it all he sticks by my side no matter what.
The many amazing people I volunteer with at the International Foundation for Autoimmune Arthritis
While I’m on the topic of IFAA I have amazing new to share with you! Janssen Global Inc. will be funding IAAF’s first patient-centered research project starting in January of 2014. Thank you Janssen!
IFAA is also getting ready for WAAD 2014 here is a preview:
The next positive thing, okay I had a hard time writing this the first time! Let's try this again. I'm honored and amazed to have been nominated for two awards in the 2013 WEGO Health Activist Awards. I don't like to ask for things so I will just say if you would like to you can click on either the Rookie of the Year button or the
Health Activist Hero logos below it will take you to my profile and you can endorse me. I would appreciate it if you could endorse the other members of IFAA as well as IFAA itself. You can also add your own nominations. I said the first time I typed this I'm just honored to be nominated and I truly mean that, I'm in the company of many amazing people. I will try and post the logos on my page as well.
Are you still reading? Sorry this is so long, it's been a while! I will try to write a shorter post next time. I still have to catch up on posts from summer, Halloween, Thanksgiving.
I also still plan on moving this blog after the New Year and will do a giveaway of some kind. I realized
it has been over a year since I started. No, it won't be a new car unless you want one of my grandson's hot wheels cars :)
Last I think? I hope you all have a wonderful holiday and take a moment to remember those who are not as fortunate to have anyone to spend the holidays with. Chronically ill people as well as others tend to end up alone since stress can make us too sick to attend family events. Consider visiting, the greatest gift you can give someone who is sick is your time, that goes year round. For those of you who
are feeling alone, know you're not. There is a whole community of people out here willing to listen, reach out. I have found even though my illness isolates me, there are many great people online who truly care and understand. I hope you’re lucky enough to find even one person to connect with, it makes a difference.
To all of you thank you all for caring enough to read this blog, you have made this a positive experience. I enjoy getting to know you through your blogs, your stories and your pictures they brighten my days. I hope the holidays bring you everything you desire.