Saturday, April 6, 2013

WEGO Health Activist Writers Challenge Day 6 A letter to my Conditions ( The uninvited sickos inside me)

Today we get to write a letter to our condition, or in my case conditions.

Dear, oh no you're not dear! Let's start again.

To RA, you invaded my body when I was 23 years old, perhaps sooner. I didn't invite you! I was a wife, a young mother, working hard at my job, and when I had time going out with my friends. I was "normal." Then YOU came along and put me in the hospital, damaged my joints, affected my ability to walk, talk, think, sleep, eat and live. You took my ability to work away. When I was needed I couldn't always be there because of you! I missed out on important times in mine and my families lives. I hate you!

To all of you sickos inside me, you know who you are! You make me feel guilty, weak, angry, you made me cry, scream, and feel pain in a way I didn't know existed before you came into my life. Because of you I have no social life, people don't think you exist! I know you do! You keep me up at night, you make my body scream in pain, you cause me to have fevers, chills, make me throw up, lose my appetite, make my heart race, make me dizzy, make me lose my eyesight, my teeth break, forget things and your latest trick make my hair fall out! I hope you're all having fun in there!

People think I'm lucky I don't have to be at work all day because of you, I have to fight to stay alive because of you!  I didn't do anything to cause you, it's not my fault you're here. Why won't you go away? I keep injecting medications that cause me horrible side effects, (I bet you get a kick out of that), oh I forgot There's no cure for you! I'm sure you love that part!

In closing you may have taken over my body, you will not take over my spirit, you will not break me, my body may be broken, but I will continue to fight you. I have you, you don't have me! It's my body, I own it, I will beat you! Since you came into my life, I have learned how to stand up for myself, I have learned how to say no. Patience? you have definitely taught me that. Thanks to you, I have "met" people I might not have otherwise, kind, caring people. I have become an activist, an IAAM volunteer! I guess for that I grudgingly say thank you, for the rest of it I say -------- %^&&&&!

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8 comments:

  1. Thank you so much for sharing and thank you for stopping by my blog and following. I am following back.

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    1. Thanks for stopping by, and following mine. I love your blog! It has the best name! I hope you have a great weekend!

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  2. Lorna, it does seem so unfair. It is good for you to get that out and let others understand what you are going through.

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    1. It was probably the hardest challenge of all, I didn't think I could do it. I'm glad I did now. You're right it was good to get out, I feel better for it :)
      I hope you're still having fun in the hopefully sun!

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  3. can i just give you a big "internet" hug? i can't imagine what you are going through but am so glad those who are suffering from lupus like you are a voice for others to relate to and an awareness for others. i'm keeping you in my prayers <3 new follower via the blog hop :)

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    1. Thank you for your touching comment, you almost brought me to tears. I appreciate your thoughtfulness and kindness. Thanks for following as well. I am following you too :) Have a great weekend!

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  4. Hi, I know it seems so unfair, but while looking at your other post, I notice that you still have a lot of blessings in your life, and as you said you still have your spirit and the ability to share and that counts for a lot! Blessings too you as you face challenges, I wish that I could say that this too will pass, but of course I can not. And you are so right able ppl and their cure...smh...what works for some does not mean that it will work for the world. God bless you and your lovely family.
    Living F.A.B.ulously on Purpose

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words. I agree with you, I have many blessings in my life and these diseases won't take those away from me. As long as I am able I will continue to "talk" about it on here. I appreciate you and all of the other people taking the time to read and comment to me. I hope you have a lovely week!

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